i don't do the "d" word.

if you've been following me on twitter & instagram (@nataliekhill), you already know that i'm cranky as hell about being on a diet.

first of all, i don't believe in diets. i seriously haven't dieted in 7 yrs and i've had (what i consider) a really healthy relationship with food for the last 3 yrs. 

see, i was really tired of all the space my body image was taking up in my mind. 

it was constant. 

and like most girls, i've struggled a lot with my body. 

so i decided to find a workout that toned me and increased my metabolism in a way that i could eat what i please- WHEN i please.

plus, i'd rather be a few lbs up and happy than 7 lbs skinner and miserable. 

i'm one of those girls who doesn't do restriction. so when you tell me i can't have a french fry (which i don't normally crave), i'm going to have an insatiable desire to shove all the fries mcDonalds can make down this gullett. when i can eat whatever i'd like, i (usually) listen to my body and only have enough to satiate me. 

HOWEVER, 

while i took my 6 wk break and stopped dancing and nyc walking and went thru a break up (i've only LOST weight with ONE break up, dangit!), etc... and started EATING everything utah and my mom had to offer, i grew a cute little muffin top and bumped up a cup size. 

nothing super major- like 5 lbs- but on a 5'3" frame, i felt it. 

naturally, 2 former bf's said i've never looked better... real men love curves- but i just wanted to feel great in my clothes. 

normally, i can get that off in a few weeks once i'm back in the city, but i have the time to dedicate to losing so i hopped on this diet (which you're supposed to implement for your life) for 2 wks. 

our family friend, tracy has seen amazing results and now coaches people thru it and i thought, 

i have nothing else to do, why not do this diet. 

i felt good about it because it's 

protein heavy

veggie (not root veggie) heavy

dairy free

sugar free

&

carb free.

it makes sense to me.... 

 y'all... i forgot how hard this is.
seriously.
hats off to anyone who diets.
the first day was sheer misery (MOSTLY emotionally... i just wanted everything i couldn't have)
and the rest of the week was pretty breezy...  my sugar cravings settled and i found that red meat was my best friend when i needed to satiate. the food on the diet is surprisingly good and eating so many fresh veggies is awesome.

but

it's really hard to be fun when you're on such a restrictive diet...

these are my hunger games treats.... woof. 

so much of my going out/dating revolves around food....

and on a bummer day like today, i'd pretty much kill for nachos, a chocolate malt, a chocolate chip cookie and a pizza...... in one sitting. i really want to eat these feelings. 

but i've seen pretty dramatic results in just one week (i don't own a scale but i'll get back to you when i find one and weigh myself) with the way my clothes fit... so i'm gonna keep with it for one more week. 

so yeah, that's the story. 

this is hard. 

harder than i remember. 

but i'm the master of my mind and body, right?

one more week. one more week. one more week. 

for more info, contact tracy.