a christmas date with worthini

worthini and i did bergdorfs and the plaza.
we shopped around,
dreamed about affording all the treasures we found,
said hello to "eloise" in her new home,
ate rum petit fours,
posed with props in bergdorf's photobooth,
saw the GLORIOUS windows,
and
dined like fancy ladies in bergdorf cafe.

isn't it wonderful being a girl?

{ sorry.... i still can't figure out how to use my scanner }

3 idiots on a couch.

taken christmas eve 2009 after my christmas card photo shoot.
yes, i'm in a onesie long underwear situation
(which i'm donning as i type).
foolish.

i love my sisters.

i'll kick up my heels and see how it feels to be sultry spanish rose!

{ spanish rose has large tortillas in her press conference dress... }

what a delightfully fun day!
i made my debut as the "spanish rose."
can't thank my birdies (esp. john philip stamotopoulos), ushers, dressers, friends, family enough!
felt so supported and loved.
it was an out of body experience and i made MANY mistakes but had the time of my life!
thank you for the beautiful wild spanish roses from

mr. wildhorn

cirque's star, kat

my birdie daughter, deanna.

thank you!
they're absolutely beautiful and i feel so special!

only 5 more to go!

xo

24 hr christmas

i made it to utah gratefully and blessedly without major drama.
mission accomplished!
surprised nina
(despite mot's best efforts to ruin aforementioned surprise)
&
squeezed dad
(carefully... he's hooked up to lots of tubes)

we had the most unconventional christmas in family history but it was beautiful, tearfilled and touching.

special thanks to the 250 + messages that church members and friends made into a GIANT paper chain.
we couldn't be more grateful for your love and support.

for more of our christmas, look at sussy's coverage { here }

oh, christmas tree (s)!

classy christmas dinner.
bless you, in-n-out!

hope your holiday was merry and bright.

i'll be HOME for christmas!

by the time you read this post,
i will be in utah where i will have just surprised sister nina with my 24 hr christmas visit!
(assuming mot can keep her trap shut! I'm the one who usually ruins surprises!)
crazy?
yes. it would have been crazy without going on for "rose"...
but now that i have that stress and a 4 show weekend after flying for 24 hrs?
completely nuts.

but i just have to be here.

couldn't miss seeing Nina at christmas (it's been 19 months!!!),
squeezing my dad and telling him everything will be just fine,
giving mot her fierce pressie in person,
laughing with my sisters,
watching stellie play with the water dogs,
sleeping in my parents house
and celebrating the birth of our Savior with the people i love.

i'm thankful for His birth.
i'm thankful for His miracles.
i'm thankful that He lives.

i hope you're so happy and loved on christmas day.

i'm praying i make it there and back!!

in the times again!

just being judgy.... can you find me?

full article { here }

grandma beauty queen

shanno sent this beautiful link to me about the miss senior arkansas pagent.

so beautiful.

may you respect your elders, laugh a lot, and be with the people you love this christmas.

watch it { here }

i got nothin.

i have lots of stories to tell you and christmas-sy things to share,
but i'm too lazy to upload my pix from my camera.

how do you like that?

i meant to go to sleep at 12:00 and now it's 1:42 and i'm wondering where my night went?

oh...
cleaned kitchen,
changed linens
4 loads of laundry
kardashian/30 rock/little people
secret santa prep
phone call to a beloved fb

sorry blends.
i'm often a sucky blogger... see, i don't spend all day at a computer so when i get on, i often skip about with the attn span of a gnat.
sorry.

promise to be better.
not really, it just sounded nice.

sweet dreams.

it's a marshmallow world in the winter

the "storm of the century" was lovely and romantic....
but, seriously, new yorkers, get a grip!
it was less than a foot... not exactly epic.

stellie, dd and i stayed in and watched the storm & natnl lampoons christmas vacation while the snickerdoodles baked.

we're having a lovely weekend (christmas partying, savoring my NP, brunching with the birdies) even though nugget refuses to walk on snow, wet, or salt.
eeshkas.

hey!
you can find INSANELY cheap bbb discount tickets
{ here }
that give you no excuse not to see me as "rosie."

eek!

kissing uncle jesse.

{ auntie m. johnnie. uncle d. sometime in 1989 (but i'd say it looks more 90's) -think m is preggers and j just finished playng a beach boy gig?
they all look the same! photo courtesy of john philip stamotopoulos' s private collection }

evidently, my dear juan, george, uncle jesse, whatever i feel like calling him, desires i call him by his full name when referring to him via twitter.

trouble is, john philip stamotopoulos
almost exceeds my 140 character limit!

so i told him to "suck it."
and "uncle jesse works just fine for me."

oh,
and since i never kiss and tell (until much later and when the relationship is over) in my real life,
i'm sure you'll be thrilled to know that my brief onstage smooch was delightful
in rehearsal today.
and by delightful, i mean just slightly better than being 13 yrs old, tongue-ing my mom's down couch pillows, while listening to him sing "forever" to aunt becky on TGIF.

muah.

happy stem-cell birthday, dad!

{ d and angel auntie vicki our stem cell savior }

wish i could be there.
so much.
it hurts my heart so much that sometimes i feel like i'm being crushed and sucked under water.
does that make sense?
no.
it just hurts.

cousin lola wrote about it here { here }
or
see sussy's bday pix { here }

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my peeps.

{my beautiful english rose (with dorothy in belly) and me
taken with an iphone in the dark...because my camera is missing again}

i have loved meeting so many of you at the stage door.
my besties have been so great in supporting me and all of you blends who have introduced yourselves have made this experience so sweet!

georgia peaches,
i'm TOTALLY mad at you for not saying hi after the show!
i was excited to see you girls again!

hope to see many more of you before the show closes!
i don't often sign autographs... if i hear one more "GIIINA!!" or "ROSIE!" sceamed in my direction, i swear i'm going to write (in sharpie) across my foreheard,
"i'm not rose or gina!"
but if you scream out at me, i'll stop and say hi.

so pleased to meet you.

gypsy of the year

each year, broadway and national touring casts collect money for broadway cares equity fights aids. we raised $63,000. bam!
at the culmination of this fund raising effort, casts perform a song, skit, whatever...
sort of a random pep rally.
it's usually pretty hilarious and often very touching.
this year, our dear chad spearheaded the performance and
the sweet apple teens (and some adults)
performed a funny little scene then transitioned into "bohemian rhapsody".

the idea was a bit conceptual....(wow.. that was a bit redundant)
can't you tell that i'm supposed to be "mary magdalene"?
the most popular guess was "slutty santa" or "the devil."

i think suzanne looks like a glittery "mole person"

mole person, lady justice, angel, mary

my birdie babies.

mornings with stella

is it bad that i sorta like it when nugget is shaved or sick?
then she's extra snugly.

so call me the wild SPANISH ROSE!

i will be playing
"rosie alvarez"
aka. spanish rose
{ dream come true }

in bye bye birdie
{ on broadway }

from dec 26-dec 30th
{ 7 shows total }

i'd love to see you there.
{ don't you want to see me smooch uncle jesse? }

xo . nat

find tickets { here }

be italian!

one more reason it's so cool to be on broadway!

on monday evening, every cast on broadway was offered tickets to view a screening of NINE.
little did we know, half the cast, producers, and brilliant director rob marshall (who said the nicest things about my "cha cha" in grease) would also be in attendance.
it was a broadway and film star party!

most girls (specially you blog-types) wish they could live inside a french film.
not me.
i'd rather be italian!
the red lips. cinched waists. open blouses. gold chains. big hair. gelato . giant shades. black eyeliner. 6 in heels. men in suits.
bello!

the film was a visual feast and performances from marion cotillard, judi dench, and penelope cruz rocked my world.

the free popcorn/soda wasn't too shabby either.

photo by bruce glikas for broadway.com

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festival of light!

{ happy hannukah }

photo of me by sussy

the 3rd date couples massage

let it be known:
a couples massage for a 3rd date isn't always the best idea.

soooo.... on my 3rd with a mormon gent, we ate incredible italian food in the east vilage. post enormous and satisfying meal, i sorta suggested that we should hit the 24 hr korean spa considering we'd both returned from whirlwind travels (remember reno? wait'll i show you the pix!). totally normal.

upon check-in, i was given a sheer-ish black tube top (with velcro attachments) and pantie (hate that word, btw). after changing into aforementioned unmentionables, i hit the ladies room where the strange korean bidet went haywire. water was squirting everywhere so i was unable to get off the pot. frantic, i pushed literally every button on the toilet to coax a cease fire. suddenly, lights and music (really? mood lighting in a toilet?!) came on and the water continued to spew. 5 minutes later, the bidet raised the white flag and the deluge ceased.

finally, soaked and somewhat raw, i emerged from the powder room to see the sweet korean ladies attempt to coax my date into a shower. thankfully, i just had my color touched up so i gratefully bowed out of the communal bathing situation. i dunno, call me old fashioned, but i sorta think you should hold hands before you shower together....;)

next, my date and i were ushered into our massage room......
OUR.
joint massage.
couples massage.
truly, i hadn't even thought that would have been a possibility.
immediately the sweet korean ladies kept trying to rip my clothes off and expressing in broken english: (no disrespect to my asians.... you get the picture)

"take-ah yo crothes off!! eeeets OOOkay!!!! prettee rady, you be nake fo yo boyfrien! eeeets ooookay!"

now i don't really have any modesty issues (guess that's what happens when you're naked backstage around many women) but i certainly wasn't kosher with letting it all hang out around my mormon (or otherwise) date.

my masseuse threw me on the table and ripped the tube bra out from under me then swiftly pulled the pantie (again, hate that word) down to my ankles. aggressive.
needless to say, i was tense.
after she flipped me over, she covered me with a hand towel (not exactly modest) and i continued to plead with my date to keep his eyes shut. at one point in this experience, i was folded over my legs in a hamstring stretch, desperately trying to keep the hand towel over my pink parts while my masseuse was pummeling my back thinner than chicken paillard.
i'm borderline positive my date was completely traumatized but after i was sure i wasn't spilling all over, i was really grateful for the kneading.

however,
next time, i'll go with my girlfriends, wait till the relationship is a little more advanced....
or be SURE to have a private room.

vampire love

when i was 16, i may have made an epically terrible movie (so terrible, i've never seen it and i definitely wont tell you the name of it) with carlisle cullen or (peter facinelli).

i was freezing my baguettes off (cause i was wearing a crop top and mini skirt-as would a 16 yr old girl who was dating a 42 yr old and had his second baby-classy movie. told you.) so our dashing peter gave me his coat to wear (as pictured).

don't you think he's dreamier as a brunette?
he's very cool.

tired of seeing grainy iphone pics of other photos?
tell DD to set up my scanner!

welcome home.

our girl came home (wearing an enormous authentic korean dress)
and our dad was there to greet her.

no small miracle.

he goes into the hospital next week (for 5 weeks) for his bone marrow transplant.
we're so grateful for your prayers and love.
. thank you . thank you .

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welcome home dear sister!

our dear tina, s3, jellybeana, brent, tini, jell, nini is finally
COMING HOME!!!

she has been serving a mission for our church for the last 18 months in south korea and we have missed her mighty bad.

she will be home today and it's absolutely killing me that i can't be at the airport to give her a squeeze and cry tears of joy.
i'm so proud of her and the woman she has become.
she is truly a force- she was SO powerful before she left but now.....
she's a masterpiece!

we've been savoring her weekly emails and i'm really really hoping she continues them... they're HILARIOUS, inspiring, and just so solid.
(maybe sussy and i can convince her to start blogging?)

i wanted to share the last paragraph of her final letter home.
i think it's incredibly beautiful.

As we leave everything behind and give our heart might mind and strength to the
Savior.. our hearts our changed and through he miraculous power of the atonement
our spirits are healed and we become disciples of Christ. The power of the
atonement is real and it's effects are everlasting. As I have tried to lose my
life for the Lord and let him make a masterpiece of me... I really have
discovered a new and better life. I am still me.. insufficient and imperfect,
but I know it whom I trust and can rely on for strength. I came to know myself
as I came to know the savior. now know that yellow is my favorite color, ice
cream is my favorite food, and the lotus is my favorite flower. I have decided
that the lotus flower is going to be my symbol to remind me of the atonement and
all that I have learned here in Korea. A lotus flower grows in the dirtiest of
water but it rises above the filth and is a symbol of purity and beauty. We too
can be "in the world and not of the world" as we rise above the filth of this
world and live up to the potential that lies within our hearts. Through the
atonement of Jesus Christ we can be changed. That's the miracle.... the greatest
miracle."
I love you all. Thank you for all your prayers of support faith and love
directed towards me and my family. This is Me... signing out. 10 - 4 good
buddy... over and out! See you around...

I LOVE THIS GOSPEL- I LOVE THE LORD- I LOVE BEING HIS MISSIONARY
Moroni 8:3
Your little Korean Sister
Nina Hill

isn't she WONDERFUL?!
this is my welcome home gift to her..
a lotus- the symbol of her mission
the om- universal peace and harmony
ruby- passion and abundance

can't wait to see what's in store for her next!
welcome home nin!
come visit soon!!!

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utah valley bride

(me. the covergirl for "utah valley: bride" - which ironically went to print after my marriage was over. ouch.)

ok, ok.
i guess i didn't realize the interest i piqued when i mentioned my former marriage.
i haven't talked about it before because it isn't just MY story.
i have deep love and respect for my ex-husband and his family and my talking about this very sensitive and painful experience just simply isn't fair to him and the new family he has created.
do not worry, we have great admiration and respect for one another and i will always continue to feel that way. our marriage was 7 years ago and short-lived (much less than a year and annulled) but i have learned so much. and for those lessons, i'm incredibly grateful.

i will never write about this again.
cause, guess what, y'all?
it's not really your business ;)

but just so you know....
when i say that there's "(no) sex and the city,"
i CERTAINLY know what i'm missing.

subsy is a lactard.

so she lines up her lactaid and pops them in between bites when we dine out...

then curses me because i always force her to
split a milkshake/sundae/anything ice creamy
over baked treats.

girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.

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granola for the soul.

(stellie before the great hair butchering of 2009)

i have a great mom.
the kind of mot who will make extra batches
of her insanely amazing home-made granola
(in all her spare time -the week she did this, dad was in and out of the hospital
and she was a full-time nurse)
and send it with her friends who surprise me at the stage door.

so every morning when i have breakfast,
i think of my unselfish mot and how much she loves me.
then i get homesick and feel a bit sad....
but then i eat the granola AND my feelings and feel so much better.

clearly, stellie thinks it's pretty special as well.

thanks, motie.
i love you too much.

shorn stellie

poor nugget suffered thru, yet ANOTHER, horrible terrible no good very bad haircut.
remember the katie holmes do?
or when her eye was brutally cut?

well, here she is, modeling her 3rd bad haircut by the 3rd nyc groomer we've visited.

always sensible to SHAVE a maltese puppy right before the winter's first snow storm!
she's sooo skinny!

she's freezing, embarrassed (true story: she wont walk around the block) and i'm livid.

found: oprah santa

our dear danny quadrino (who was an amazing "hugo peabody" tonight)
found this on the train...
clearly oprah has inhabited the radio city santa.

one of my favorite things.

bye bye birdie! i'm gonna miss you so!

found out we're closing on january 24th (the date our original limited run ends).
we're all incredibly sad and shocked considering we've been selling out....but this is a business....
and there are so many other factors that go into it...

needless to say,
i'm very sad.
i'm desprately going to miss these people.
watching our teens cry nearly broke my heart.
christmas presents are going to be sparse this year.
and
guess i'm not hitting the DVF sample sale....

the upshot:
hopefully new wonderful jobs and people will come into my life.
i'll get to go home to see my family & get some ski time.
&
now i'll have time to date at a more reasonable hour.

where one door closes, another opens.
right???

oooh no.. will i ever work again?! aaaahhhh!

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my dress @ shabby!!

remember this dress?

i'm loving shabby's ready-to-wear gorgeousness.

bugle boy
and dear shabby apple, could you please send the above dress to me?
(ooh no... i really shouldn't post this... then we'll ALL have the same dress!
ok. just please refrain from wearing it to any holiday parties in nyc or church in nyc. thank you. )

i'd be forever grateful!
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